sometimes i wonder if i really want the answers ..... or i am just a masochist ... wallowing in my helplessness ....


may be like the song ...

Kyun Naye Naye Se Dard Ki Firaaq Mein Talaash Mein Udaas Hai Dil ....

CONTRADICTION

"I just want you to be happy", i say
(and i want u to be happy with 'me', in my heart i pray)

"no expectations and no promises", i proudly claim
(oh please dont leave me !, my heart exclaim)

"I love u in the true sense, i want u to go places"
(of course i trust u love me ..... but then, ... why r u still in your senses ?)

Was love suppossed to be such a big contradiction?
i want u to be happy in ur own suffocation.

dont know what i actually doubt...
your love or my eligibility for the same ....