I AND IDOL

According to me, idolizing somebody is perhaps the worst thing u could do to him.

So u are an ‘x’ person…. Confused, puzzled, impulsive and lost trying to find ur way out ….and ur idol, resolved, unshakable, principled, balance personified, … somebody who has answers to the critical “what is right and what is wrong”. It all starts with respect for him and then the respect grows by leaps and bounds .. till u become blind with the faith and completely surrender urself to him. This doesn’t sound selfish u will say … but wait … now starts the second act …. So now the other person is an integral part of u. and u make no qualms about accepting it .. on the other hand, u go on and tell this to the person. Make him realize what all u have been and are doin cos of him. Constantly keep on reminding him of the influence the person has on you. Intermittently talk of how you have been facing difficulties trying to act according to him and blow up emotional trumpets … something that’s called “senti maarna” in hinglish. (well, senti maarna sounds very cheap and though that’s none of ur intention, finally u end up doing just that)


Now, the idol himself gets overwhelmed by the respect you shower upon him. Being the good guy that he is, he is conscious of his influence on u and takes utmost care to be balanced in ur case. Now u get a little more selfish, and leave all ur philosophical and imaginary burdens on his shoulders. U are free to speak up ur mind whenever u want without giving it a shred of thought … ofcourse, cos u r supposed to be confused !!!!! and leave it to him to make sense out of it. U r free to behave the way u want .. bcos u r impulsive(didn’t I say that in the 4th line ?) and so u absolutely refuse to take up any responsibility whatsoever… right, cos u r lost. That’s what I call absolute freedom !!!!!!!!!!!!

And now ur idol, the great one, having been denied the freedom of making mistakes, struggles to make sense of whatever u do, taking care not to make mistakes, trying not to force up his views, trying to minimize the suffering u undergo cos of him and positively wanting to get u out of this. He thinks, ponders, introspects, fights with himself, curses…. pulls out his hair !!!!
But he manages it all for u … just that now he s a little confused and puzzled and sometimes… mind u just sometimes gets impulsive ….